Isn't it funny how every person has different things that
make them feel that they are going to be "ok"?
What do I mean by this? Sometimes, like tonight for me, you get those moments where you are sure that your life will bring you pain, and you are sure that it will also bring you happiness, and somewhere in the middle, you are pretty dang sure that you will be ok. There are some of us, who know we will be ok when are finances are all sorted out. There are others, who know that if they get their "thought-life" in order they will be fine (probably me in that lot). There are others that need to be sure of relationships (alas, there I am again). Or sure of their career path. Either way, its probably a little different for all of us. I mean there are the obvious truths we stand on, but beyond those, what are the things which really make us feel sure? I find that so interesting.
I love those moments, where you can almost feel the weight of circumstances to come, and the heartache that will accompany them. Yet you smile, because admist all of that, there will be joy in seeing people become what they are meant to be. In letting go of yourself and your "perfect conception" of the world. At least for me anyway, there is beauty in that, realizing that everything might turn out ok, even if its not how I imagined it...