Monday, February 27, 2006

Musing...

Isn't it funny how every person has different things that
make them feel that they are going to be "ok"?

What do I mean by this? Sometimes, like tonight for me, you get those moments where you are sure that your life will bring you pain, and you are sure that it will also bring you happiness, and somewhere in the middle, you are pretty dang sure that you will be ok. There are some of us, who know we will be ok when are finances are all sorted out. There are others, who know that if they get their "thought-life" in order they will be fine (probably me in that lot). There are others that need to be sure of relationships (alas, there I am again). Or sure of their career path. Either way, its probably a little different for all of us. I mean there are the obvious truths we stand on, but beyond those, what are the things which really make us feel sure? I find that so interesting.

I love those moments, where you can almost feel the weight of circumstances to come, and the heartache that will accompany them. Yet you smile, because admist all of that, there will be joy in seeing people become what they are meant to be. In letting go of yourself and your "perfect conception" of the world. At least for me anyway, there is beauty in that, realizing that everything might turn out ok, even if its not how I imagined it...

3 comments:

Kathryn said...

I read your post over a couple times. The part about the truths we rely on made me think. Besides the obvious truths that I rely on, I can rely on the fact that I will always be unsure. That is part of the beauty of life. I was going through a rough bit and my mom said to me "Think of your life without hardships. It would be so boring! You are an ARTIST. In order to relate to art, theatre and films you need to know pain and suffering. It also helps you know God."

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved." -Helen Keller

Bonnie said...

Well said. I'm in the "unsure of my career path"/future group. I just keep asking myself "WHY?" Why am I always unsure about what I'm supposed to do? Why doesn't God just make it clear to me? Why do I have to go through life questioning, wondering?

But then it is all rather obvious, isn't it?

the tapered pant said...

again the "bonnie" comment catches me offguard...
Sharelle, I think you're phenomenal. A stunning obersvation and eloquently put, wandering into the sublime. If it didn't take me so long to get there, I'd come over right now, and we'd hang out. And you'd better believe there'd be talking over music, laughter and ranting.