It's official. I'm over the Top -
Lavonne is never going to speak to me again.
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I am lamenting graduation. Who laments graduation? Who is this sad to leave their school? Absolutely no one – except me. Oh how ridiculous I am. But truly, I feel a deep sadness. I just love it here. It’s so rare to find a place in your life like that. When you do, you just want to hold onto it. Not only will I love the memories, but I love it now, in the moment. That is truly a gift.
The more I think about it, I know I will be back. Actually, I will be backer sooner than I think. I am further considering Grad work which means I will need to update my degree to an English Major. I have sadly sacrificed my English Major in order to do PDP. I am going to graduate with General Studies, so I can get my Bachelor of Education (ugh..so complicating). All this to say -essentially this is a “Pseudo-Graduation” of sorts. We will celebrate the BA, but it’s certainly not the end. Don’t be shocked if you ask me what I am doing in fall and I say “Back at TWU”. I just can’t get enough…
I thought of a good metaphor. It’s like a relationship. If you really love something or someone, it is harder to let go. But wait! It goes further – the world around you tells you to move on, that you are “better” than this relationship. “Just let go” they say. But you are sitting there going “no, this is it, this is what I love, for better or for worse”. In this case, for worse may mean unfortunate student debt. Hehe.
The more I think about it, I know I will be back. Actually, I will be backer sooner than I think. I am further considering Grad work which means I will need to update my degree to an English Major. I have sadly sacrificed my English Major in order to do PDP. I am going to graduate with General Studies, so I can get my Bachelor of Education (ugh..so complicating). All this to say -essentially this is a “Pseudo-Graduation” of sorts. We will celebrate the BA, but it’s certainly not the end. Don’t be shocked if you ask me what I am doing in fall and I say “Back at TWU”. I just can’t get enough…
I thought of a good metaphor. It’s like a relationship. If you really love something or someone, it is harder to let go. But wait! It goes further – the world around you tells you to move on, that you are “better” than this relationship. “Just let go” they say. But you are sitting there going “no, this is it, this is what I love, for better or for worse”. In this case, for worse may mean unfortunate student debt. Hehe.
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There you go, I have truly gone off the deep end, using analogies to describe my ridiculous state. Perhaps one person reading this will understand me. The rest of you, please just refrain from making fun of me, and maybe come to a “Grad BBQ” if I organize one. We need to celebrate graduation and the end of the semester. Heck – maybe next year we can have another one when I graduate again! More reasons to party….
4 comments:
but don't you have to do your PDP at SFU? Are you doing secondary ed? Hmmm...or are you scrapping that altogether and going to do the MA ASAP? Hmmm...could I use any more abbreviations in this comment?
oh rach. you are very attentive to my life plans. If you are still interested, its all here:
PDP starts in January, so technically, I could fit one or two fall classes in, that is if they let me in late because I will be in EUROPE in early Sept! woot!
Yes, at the minute I FEEL LIKE scrapping PDP for the English MA ASAP. (ohh abbreviations). But I should probably press towards the goal of teacher certification. I just love my English so much, and I want to do more. Its hard to decide in what "sequence" ya know?
How goes your schooling?
Sharelle... I am more keen than you can even comprehend. Today, I spent more than an hour telling Joel Bentley why I love Trinity in an interview for the TWU View Book. And he took my photo (translation: I'm going to be immortalized as one of those "faces of Trinity")... WITH MY DICTIONARIES.
Uh YEAH. Don't even TALK to me about being keen okay? I am pretty sure I said "I love Trinity" at LEAST twelve times. It was silly.
PS: Just so you know how much I'm going to miss you (and how much I already do miss you), I signed up for a fricking GOOGLE account so I can post on your blog.
Geez Sharelle.
PS: Let's hang out sometime before you leave for Europe. Because I'm going to live in Walnut Grove for the summer and my books have space for YOU in them.
They should interview me for the TWU view book. HA!
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